Catch Up

It's been a while since my last post, sooo let's play catch up! 

In the last month I experienced my first ever Mother's Day. My husband and family made it so special, and I got some fun gifts. It felt like Christmas all over again, but this time Christmas was just for me. I am not materialistic, but receiving gifts for being a SUPER mom was great! We also got to spoil my Mom and Mother-In-Law. 

My husband turned 25! Ben says he is half way to 30, but he really was halfway to 30...10 years ago when he turned 15. 

Our FIRST anniversary. Okay, it is HARD to do something fun on your first anniversary when it lands on a Sunday, which happens to almost everyone on their one year...unless it's a leap year. We went to lunch at Pelican Lake Cafe where I had the BEST root beer drink! Seriously, the mug was HUGE and frozen, lots of ice and need I say more? I used to hate root beer until I realized it helped me produce more milk for my baby and now I am hooked. My mom had a slice of our wedding cake she had froze for us, we went over to her home, took a pic, took a bite and threw that thing away! Freezer burn taste at its finest! Last year we went to Yellowstone National Park and Jacksonhole after our wedding, but it just wasn't a HONEYMOON to us. So, right now we are planning a fun cruise for just the two of us! 

Splash Park Day! I had never been to the splash park in Vernal before. No kids, no splash park. When you become a Mom it's amazing what activities become SO MUCH FUN to you. Anistyn can't really splash yet, but you bet ya we will be there at least once a week. Mom getting her tan on and baby enjoying the sweet Summer time. 

Recently Ben started a new job. This job takes a lot more of his time than his old one, but it's been...FUN. I feel that the time we spend apart makes being together twice as special and we are always out and about doing something with our daughter. Yesterday we attended church and snuck away a little early to spend some family time at Red Fleet. Anistyn loved the sand. In her mouth and between her toes. 

Lots of love from the Robinson's <3

Marriage Is What You Make It

The last few days my husband and I both have said to one another, "I can't believe we've almost been married for one year." A WHOLE YEAR people. My wedding dress is stored in one of my Mom's closets in her home, and believe it or not...ok, BELIEVE IT...I wanted to so badly go put it on yesterday. The closer our anniversary gets the more lovey-dovey I've been acting. You know, those days you just wake up and you just want to squeeze the crap out of your significant other, you text them a million times that day saying I love you over and over again and explaining yourself on how sometimes you don't even seem grateful for them even though you are. Oh, and it doesn't end there. You've totally cranked up the volume on your iPhone while listening to country love songs on Pandora. I'm totally having one of those days, and since Ben is at work and can only text me once in a while I had to jot down my feelings into this blog post.

 

I hope by now I've made you smile and you're thinking of those days that you feel that way about your significant other. I have always said -Marriage is what you make it- THAT, my friends...is the truth. Marriage isn't always rainbows and butterflies. Marriage can also be fights, eye rolling, disagreements, oh and the best one...the silent treatment. I am so excited for our approaching anniversary as husband and wife. I can't wait to share about some of the things I've learned about myself, about my husband and about US on our first year of marriage.

 

TO BE CONTINUED...



Full Time ME

First of all...WHY am I awake at 2:30 AM writing a blog post? My almost 5 month old baby is sound asleep and my husband has a "light" snore tonight. I should be getting the best sleep right now...but instead I'm tossing and turning from the pain of removing an ingrown toenail myself. YUCK! OW! Ibuprofen.

I am also wide eyed because my mind is racing. This Fall I will be a returning student to USU. Full time Wife, full time Mom, Full time Student. I am...excited...nervous...stressed...doubting myself. Pretty normal feelings that young women experience when they're trying to do it all. 

I have felt so behind on being successful as I see my high school classmates graduating from college, earning their degrees or landing that UHHHH-MAZING career/job. I should have left to school right after graduating high school. I should have never taken a year off. I should be graduated by now. 

Then I realize...If I would have left to school, If I wouldn't have taken that year off...I probably would have never, EVER crossed paths with my husband. I would have never had my amazing baby girl. 

It's never too late for school. It's never too late for a family. This is when I realize that I need to let go of the "should have" and just take it one day at a time...and also go back to sleep.

Full time Mom, Full time Wife & Full time Student. I've got this! 

SPRING 2014

Spring!?! What!?! Does anyone else feel like we were just celebrating the 2013 holiday season with our family and friends? I swear, the older I get the faster time is flying by. I'm pretty sure it's because I am having fun. ;)

Spring brings me such a clean and refreshing feeling. Hot cocoa and coffee aren't so appealing anymore, bring on the fruit smoothies and pink lemonade. Suddenly your sweaters, scarves, and boots end up in the back of your closet, bring on the flip flops and short sleeves. It rains, it snows, it's warm, it's cold...but, THE WIND...ugh!

Spring brings back the feeling of being in school and getting that antsy feeling when you know there aren't many days left until you are school-free! For the first time ever, Spring has brought back a nauseated feeling. It was a year ago that I found out I was expecting and started morning, day and night sickness. It's awful to remember such a thing and I hope that this is the first and last time I feel this way about this season.

Spring also feels like a new year. Out with the old, in with the new. Out with the old me. In with the new me. Just like plants, trees, grass, and flowers we can also renew ourselves. I am so thankful that we are able to learn from our mistakes and simply move on with our lives. I have never felt so much peace and joy as I do now. I believe Spring cleaning isn't only for your home, but for your soul too. Here are only three of many things I plan on doing to Spring clean myself.

1. FORGIVE - Forgive anyone that has done you wrong. You can tell them or you can keep it to yourself. I have forgiven and I myself have been forgiven in the past also. The feeling of peace will overcome you!

2. BE POSITIVE - via Twitter I read this from Bo Ramsey: How you feel and look at Monday is a perfect way to see how you feel and look at your life and career! Success starts with Monday! Tell me that is not true!? I don't know how many times I have heard...I hate Mondays...I hate Monday only leads to I hate this and I hate that. Positivity is key.

3. SPRING CLEAN - Admit it...if you aren't on Facebook you're most likely to be found on Twitter or Instagram. SPRING CLEAN, yes...SPRING CLEAN your social media friends!

And here is a picture of tulips, because they are my favorite thing about this beautiful season. Have a wonderful day. xoxo 

Dear Anistyn

Dear Anistyn,

I had promised myself that I would write everything about you in a journal, but you are 3 1/2 months old and life has been busy! I thought I was happy before you were in my life, but now that you are in it I cannot believe that I thought I was "happy" back then.

You were the best newborn baby. Other moms terrified me with their exhaustion, but to my surprise you were sleeping 6 hours straight until I was advised by a pediatrician to wake you up every 4 hours for a feeding instead. I let it slide every once in a while, because I still was not used to waking up throughout the night. You grunted...especially when waking up. The newborn clothes you were given - that I thought you would be too small for - fit you perfectly. You are my little princess, that's for sure. Your Dad was a softy, but is now mush. I do not recall a time he has came home after you were born with a frown. I can see his eyes looking around for you the moment he walks in through the door, and the second he finds you he smiles, he smiles really big.

Now that you have moved out of your newborn stage you are twice the fun! This morning your kicks, happy screams and wide open eyes woke me up. You keep me extra busy some days, and some days you sleep so much that I want to wake you because I start to miss you. Your Dad still gives you the best baths. You splash so much when he starts to sing you your bath song.

We are so blessed to have your Dad. He works hard to let me stay home with you, and because of it I was here today to hear you share your first real laugh. Grandma Jo-Jo recorded you and I've watched the video all day long. I've had to watch the video because my attempts at making you laugh again are a big FAIL. 

Blowouts, spit-up, peeing on our bed...we would not trade it for the world. You have put so many smiles upon our faces. You have made us think twice, maybe even three times about decisions. You have made us look at life differently. You are our biggest blessing. So happy to have you! Love you. 

Anistyn's Baby Blessing

My eyes start to slowly crack open as I start to hear small grunts from a hungry baby that's trying to wake up just as hard as I am. I get up and walk carefully to the other side of the dark bedroom to turn on a lamp. I gently pick up Anistyn and proceed to nurse her.

 

After Anistyn's feeding I stood up with her. I looked in the vanity mirror and saw a Mom with crazy hair and mismatched pajamas, but what stood out to me the most was the way Anistyn held me. Her little tired eyes said, "Thank you, Mom." I just know it!

 

Yesterday Anistyn received her baby blessing. It was such a wonderful day with family & friends. Days before her blessing I was asked to think of something specific I wanted said in her special prayer. Three words struck me most. KIND...I want her to be kind. I want her to respect, love and befriend others. CHEERFUL...I want her bright light to shine through a smile and her personality. I want her to be a happy person and I want her to live a happy life. FORGIVING...I hope that Anistyn becomes a forgiving person. There have been times it has been difficult for me to forgive others, and the moment I do I know that it will - and it has - brought peace and comfort into my life.  

 

However will she learn these things? 

 

It ALL starts at home. Her first teachers will be my husband and I. We need to remember the kind of person we want her to be each day and be that example. And I know that one day she will verbally say, "Thank you, Mom." "Thank you, Dad."

 

 

Our Valentine's Day

This year my husband and I chose to give Valentine's Day a twist. We did not give each other gifts and planned a snowboarding date instead. Valentine's Day came one week and one day late, but I will tell you this...it was worth the wait!

 

Marriage isn't always rainbows and butterflies. There is the bickering over Ben's beard shavings left in the sink. There is the eye rolling because I haven't started washing the pile of laundry. But, I will say this...it is ALL beautiful because there are also days like these that you share together, laugh together, play together, eat good food together and act like you're dating all over again... 

 

YOU ARE MY HAPPY PLACE.